No Baby Yet- Cycle One Of IUI

So today was a little ( ok a lot) disappointing. After almost a month wait , which really felt like two years but whose counting. I found out that I wasn't pregnant.

This news wouldn't have been so bad if I wasn't just so sure that my very first IUI went successfully. I had all kind of symptoms that gave me that yeah girl this is it feeling. But yet again no luck. 

What's the next step,  is the question that keeps running through my mind. What should we do next? Should we take a break? Should we do another round of comid and IUI? Should we try eastern medicine and see if there is a different result. Or should we just stop for now?

I'm not sure how many of you reading this know that my husband and I are really trying to have a baby? We like so many other couples don't really talk about it. Starting our own family is so very important to us but for a few different reasons it just hasn't been that easy. 

My 29th birthday is so close I can almost tasted it and this birthday really has me thinking. I've been thinking more about where I want to be, who I want to be and my family and what that will be? I always knew I didn't want to be a young parent, having a teenage mom and all but I also don't want to be that 50 year old  mom with a child in second grade. So I'm just hoping to have my first baby before I'm 30. 

I know we'll be great parents and I know that it will happen; I'm just concerned when. We get the you're married now when are ya'll going to have babies question from everybody. I know I also get " you want kids so bad take mine!" But the thing is I don't want your kids I want my own!! It's crazy that so many people say things and they don't know the impact it has on someone else's life. I know  when people ask me or make statements about kids I try to keep things really positive and upbeat but I know at times it can be a little ( ok a lot)frustrating. 

At this stage I'm just a little shocked. Like I said I just knew  was pregnant. I have made up my mind that I'm not going to let this negative stop me! I will get a positive result and I'll be a part of the mom club soon. Until then, I'm going to keep praying and visualizing the outcome I want and I will have it. Wish us luck and keep our family it your thoughts!

XoxO,

Laesha Ebony